I was flipping through some old writing of mine in a notebook and since November is about remembering and being thankful for your blessings I wanted to share something old with you. I’m thankful because I am truly lucky to have my boyfriend and the love that we share. Despite how hard is always is to trust again after a past of hurt and pain. So I thank my boyfriend for having patience with me and with us. Hope you enjoy this:
A person’s heart remembers pain and sadness like a scar from a burn…
8.01.10…Sometimes I wonder if I’ve been hurt and damaged so bad…that I continuously wonder if I can ever live through one day not paranoid someone I love will hurt me or walk away. I struggle everyday with these two fears and I can’t breathe, for the fear is suffocating and killing me. The tears fall down like rain. But no matter how much someone I love eases my pain, I always fear the unforseen. The forecast for my love life is predicted to be sunny, but I can’t help but fear the chance of a thunder storm. Where one day of rain goes on for years in my heart. A person’s heart remembers pain and sadness like a scar from a burn. The pain hurts so bad you rarely forget that feeling and you are forever cautious. Got too much on my mind…sweet dreams. -M.K.O.